to maan

i finally found the satisfaction and... hmm... drive?... to continue with this course until i die. haha!! buti nahanap ko before ako mag-graduate. hehe. baka graduate na lang ako hindi ko padin gusto yung course ko.=p narealize ko lang siya kanina nung nasa chE133 ako... imagine?!... sa klase ni sir ches?! hehe. actually, i plan to take him again next sem. give him another chance. hahaha! malay mo, mas magaling nga siya sa ibang subject gaya ng sabi niya.=p haay... ayun, hindi ko pa exactly madefine kung ano yung na-discover ko pero i think it had something to do with me solving and understanding the chE133 take home #1 and with the chE122 exam last tuesday... well, i didn't finish that exam but i was able to understand what i was doing. hahaha!! hmm... sana lang magpatuloy. hehe.=p thanks for repeatedly telling me to love my course 'cause it's what i'll be doing for the rest of my life.=)

p.s. si lugie kasi may kasalanan kaya ako andito sa chem eng'g ba. hehe. pero ayun, nasan siya? gago talaga yun.=p nakinig naman ako.=p o well, destiny siguro... nyaks!=p

weirdo

why am i only capable of making poems when i'm in pain?...

simpsonized jannie

go to simpsonizeme.com and upload a picture. may rules naman so no prob. tapos, you could edit it if you think medyo malayo parin sa mukha mo yung simpsonized you. hehe. fun siya.=p

WTF???

after 5 consecutive days of cold air, strong winds and non-stop rain, ang init ah!!! hehe... shet... napaka-init dito sa dorm room namin!! takte... kahit hangin walang pumapasok... grr... naman!! where's the balance??? wala na bang natural balance ng weather ngayon? weird... tapos may parating nanaman daw na bagyo sabi sa radyo. haha!! no wonder, i still have a cough.=p

on 5day break and the street dance concert

kapuya ng 5-days straight na walang pasok uy... nagtamad2x lang ako ba... well, i tried doing the 133 probset pero tanga lang siguro talaga ako kasi hindi ko siya maintindihan... ewan ko... tapos, ayun, i just laid in bed most of the time or surf the net or mostly watch bleach... again... haaay... i even watched the simpsons again... gosh... i read the 122 chapter 4 kanina pero hindi din naga-pasok sa brain ko... haay... bukas, i promise.=) haay... kapuya jud uy... sana diretso na lang sa sem break para uwi na ko tsaka dun na ko magtamad2x... at least andun si maan...=) uy ma! mag-beach tayo sa sem break beh. kahit tayo lang dalawa. isama natin kapatid ko.=p hehe. please!! i desperately need salt water, sun and sand.=p haay... bored to death... pero ayoko pa magklase ba... actually, ayoko na magklase... gahd!!! i wanna go home... makipag-inuman kay maan na hindi naman umiinom... mag beach kahit mag-isa... matulog sa kama ko... at mag-mall or wherever basta makabili ng clothes and shoes... gahd im being selfish again... well, lagi naman... pano na kaya ang chE133, 122, 197, 134, comm3 at es26 ko?... will i survive this sem?...

nga pala!! nanood ako ng street dance concert kagabi. libre ni ghe. haha! umuwi kasi si frances kaya may extra tix siya kaya sinama ako.=p and mind you, i didn'd get jealous as i thought i would. i've never watched any of their concerts kasi naiinggit lang ako manood, or so i thought. pero when i watched, ok lang naman. i was even happy na i was watching. hehe. know why? as yabang as it sounds (kebs.=p) i felt like i was capable of what they were doing if i just trained and worked for it. pero malamang, right now, di ko pa yun kaya. but if i wanted, makakakaya ko din yun... naks. ever. anyway, cool. ang galing2x talaga nila. at ultimate crush ko padin si xernan. hahaha!!=p

ps. God help me tomorrow.. let me do everything i need to do.. and wake me up early too.. thank you.=)

friday (august 17,2007)

"mag-aral maigi. kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher." -bob ong

hehe, sinend sakin ni ken kaninang mga 12mn. ayan, wala nanaman kaming klase today dahil according to the people who monitor the weather, lalakas pa daw ang ulan later. pero, di naman umulan dito sa qc the whole day yesterday.. weird.. wow, wala kaming pasok since wednesday until this monday.. halos 1week din..=)

birthday nga pala ni rexie ngayon. happy birthday!! ayun, sumama ako kina jeni, jew at jamie kanina para surpresahin si rexie. kanta, kain, kamera, kards. haha.=p pinilit na maging 'k' yung lahat ng first letter.=p fun masyado!! hanapin niyo yung videos namin sa youtube.=p hanapin niyo si tsuding na user. hehe.=p yung video niya na 'my bday' tsaka yung pusoy dos namin na video. hehe.=p fun!!=) happy birthday ulit!!

kausap ko rin si daryl ngayon sa y!messenger voice. hehe.=p fun! matagal ko na to hindi nakausap ng matagal sa phone.=) hehe. yung walang kwentang usap lang gud. yung usap2x lang.=p more than an hour na kami naga-usap. cool.=p actually, 1 hour 47 minutes and 26 seconds.=p

hehe. the happiness of having no class.=p thank you egay.=p

p.s. grabe, umaga na. may araw na. 5:29 am na sa laptop ko. tsktsk.. goodnight!! este, good morning!!=)

sleeping and dreaming

i sleep...
therefore, i dream

but can i dream
and yet not sleep?

or does every dream
occur in sleep?

or does dream
always accompany sleep?

can't i sleep
an not dream?

or do i sleep forever
as to fulfill my dreams?

cause if i dream
everytime i sleep...

then all my dreams
occur in sleep...

so to see all dreams
i have to sleep...

and sleep i will
so i may dream...

~haay... bangag nanaman ako... goodnight...=)

bagyo

rain, rain
go away
...
come again
another day
...
little janny
wants to play
...
rain, rain
go away
...

friendster testimonials

i spent an hour reading all my testimonials in friendster. it's sad that the earlier ones where erased and some of the testimonial series that a few people gave where lacking. but reading them was incredibly heartwarming. makes you feel loved and liked by the people you know.. not sure if every single one meant what they wrote but it was still nice reading them all. i could even trace what happened to me from fourth year highschool up til now.. hehe.. *sigh* makes me wonder though if the jansell they knew back then is still the same jansell they see now.. hmm.. i'm not the math and physics wizard they knew back then.. i'm not that academically inclined anymore.. but hopefully, i'm still the same in character and personality.. or if i did change.. i hope i changed for the better.. hmm.. tell me guys, did i change so much?..

busy?

busy siguro mga tao ngayon noh? ala na kasi masyadong naga-post dito sa mulitply.. nyehehe.. or ako lang tong alang ginagawa kundi mag-net? hehe.. oo na.. mag-aaral na ko.. i tried naman kanina sa lib eh. di daw kami meant to be na magkaintindihan ni mccabe. hehe. mean kasi si mccabe. selfish. hindi nagshashare ng knowledge.. or ayaw lang talaga puamsok sa utak ko nung lesson? or leche lang talaga magturo si sir ches? i think mas plausible na leche talaga si sir ches. hahaha!! sana lang noh hindi siya naga-multiply at hindi siya friend ng friends ko para wala siya sa network ko at hindi niya to mabasa? haay.. sana naman hindi ako bumagsak dito sa 133.. life.. ang hirap na nga na subject, leche pa yung teacher.. haay.. o well, life sucks.=p

p.s. ang lamig.. lecheng bagyo.. i don't like the cold much eh.. i'm a summer type of girl.=p

"will you hold on when i let go?"

if someone asks you this question, anong isasagot mo?

may nakausap na ako about this dati. wala lang. nag-uusap lang kami nung kabarakada ko and this scenario popped up in my head. a person once told me that if this was asked of him, he'd let the girl go cause that was what she wanted. he didn't own her or anything and out of respect na rin daw, he'll let go. before, i thought that was a really rational answer. i mean, diba, ito naman ang sagot ng mga clear-headed? but now, i think that answer was too emotion-less. masyadong rational. walang taong in-love na clear-headed. wala lang. noon siguro yan din yung sagot ko. pero ngayon, hindi. kung ako, i won't go without a fight. i'll try and try and try to win him back. i'll try my best to understand why he's letting go and figure out a way na hindi na siya umalis. pero kung after everything i do, ayaw niya padin.. hindi naman ako complete idiot para umasa pa. tama na siguro ang ilang beses na pagmamakaawa at pagpapahiya sa sarili diba?

p.s. baka naman isipin niyong may problema ako ha. WALA AKONG PROBLEMA. hehe. naalala ko lang to kasi nag-scan ako ng emails ko at nakita ko yung tanong ko dati sa kaibigan ko. oki? at gusto ko lang magsalita about it again. wehehe.=) sige, kayo? ano sagot niyo dito?=p

ka-boring na lang nako uy

haay..ka-uli-on na kaayo ko bah..kapoy na kaayo diri sa qc..pa-uli-a na ko'g davao beh..haay..life..kapoy..gusto nako mag-beach ug mag-nature trip kauban si jon sa davao pero dili man siya maka-adto 'til maka-graduate mi..haay..life..buang-a sa life uy..dili pagyud ko kabalo kung unsa na ko paghuman sa tanan na ginabuhat nako karon diri sa up..haay..buang-a gyud uy..tan-awa gud nang akuang profile ug pix ug stuff..ka-boring nako na tao..haay..magpalunod na lang ko sa beach..ma-happy pa ko..wehehe..gusto sad nako mag-inom-inom with friends bah..haay na lang..uy!hubog buddies nako tong recent school break, inom napud ta pag-uli nako..wehehe..ta's mabuang napud ko sa mahitabo naku..wahahaha..see when i see you..i'm so boring..=p