12:45pm UP time
woke up and went down to get lunch. i texted my mom that i just woke up since she called me hours before.
12:50pm UP time
my mom called while i was in line. when i was about to go, that shitty lady from the mess hall called me and generally scolded me for not checking the date on my meal card. i told her i did. isn't today sept18? she said, "19 kaya ngayon!!" me, "sorry gud ate.." and checked the right date. my mom asked me what happened and i told her. then, she scolded ME, for not following. i said i just forgot the date. i thought today was 18. then, she ended the call.
12:55pm UP time
me crying and generally not wanting to return to davao anymore.
leche. can't it be possible that i just forgot the date?? puche naman. ang oa din ni ate dun sa mess hall. ipakain ko sa kanya yang lecheng meal card na yan eh! bwiset! tapos si mommy pa. oo na. i was sent here to study. i KNOW!! but i can't i talk with my friends, bond with them before i eat dinner and do what i have to do? can't i rest my head from all the lessons i've been forced fed with the whole day before i do it to myself? ayoko na tuloy umuwi ng davao. i was so excited to go home.. and now, i know all i'm gonna get is not bickering on why i didn't do well and why i have low grades. it's hard okay! it's HARD! hindi ko na nga alam if i can take this anymore.. may exam pa ko bukas on a subject i barely understand due to a teacher who barely goes to class!! and i have another exam on saturday on a subject i barely know due to my prof who's so smart, she leaves my dumb brain behind when she teaches us. damn it.. i'm having another emotional breakdown. i'm even crying as i write this.. nag-online lang ako para isulat to in case mabawasan yung pain yung galit at yung general shittiness ng buhay.. pucha.. ayoko na..
