bakit di ako stressed?

ayun, dito ako sa blogspot ko magpopost nito kasi wala naman akong chE friends na nagbabasa nito.. hindi kasi nila alam. haha.=p anyway, labo noh? bakit di ako stressed?? i mean, halos lahat, or lahat na siguro, nang batchmates ko, parang feeling nilang lahat natatakpan na sila ng mga responsibilidad nila sa acads. yung parang wala na daw silang buhay para sa ibang bagay except acads. bakit ako hindi ganun yung feeling ko? oo, may oras naman na feeling ko ang dami-dami kong dapat gawin at naiiyak na ko kasi di ko matapos. pero pagkatapos na pagkatapos nung mga deadline na yun, okay na ko ulit. nag-aabang na ko ng mga panibagong mga gawain. hindi naman sila nakatambak sa isa't isa. parang by wave sila dumarating sakin. bakit parang yung iba forever natatabunan? haay.. hindi naman sa gusto kong ma-feel yung nafi-feel nila. pero baka kasi may kulang sa ginagawa ko kaya ako ganito. or masyado lang akong carefree kaya hindi ako apektado gaano.. weirdly enough.. kayo ba? sa palagay niyo? (hahahaha! sino kayang tinatanong ko, wala namang nagbabasa nito eh.=p well, except si jon at si inno, sporadically.=p)

death note

just finished watching the second installment of the death note movie. whee!! i am now officially a misa-misa fan!! hehe.=p when i first saw the picture of the movie amane misa, i was dissapointed. she looked so sad and gloomy and amane was such a bubbly person. but, when you watch the movie, you see the bubbly misa-misa and the darker misa who is so in love with light. whee!! happiness!! they changed the story A LOT but i think it was okay given that they only had 4hours to show everything. the actress for takada was pretty.=) also, the actor they got for light was great! well, again, when i first saw his picture, i thought he didn't look handsome enough. hahaha!! but, given his acting, i think he was great! i first saw him in battle royale and battle royale 2. he's sorta overacting but nevertheless, he shows the right emotion at the right moments. it's really cool..=D whee!! happiness is mine!!=D i have one question though, for all the death note fans out there, is it possible to stop your earlier death by having your death scheduled first at a later time? just like what L did at end?

ps. i so love misa's outfits!! wish i could wear those everyday!!=D

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ang tangkad pala ni ryan cayabyab noh? nakasalubong ko sa sc kanina, may dalang dalawang plastic bag. umiwas pa nga ko before ko narealize na siya yun. malapit ko mabangga eh. parang twice my height ata. hahaha.=D

falling

we were soaring
soaring high up
high up and enjoying
enjoying the wind
the wind on our faces
faces near each other
each other and looking
looking and loving
loving and binding
binding together
together forever
but

forever isn't forever
forever isn't meant
i was

meant to be let go
let go when you can't
can't hold on
hold on to you
hold on to me
hold on to us

you let go
let go and abandon
abandon and fall
falling fast...

i have this feeling that i'm overly pessimistic now.. forever just doesn't seem so real anymore.. and when something seems right i wonder when it'll go wrong.. what happened to me?..

movie stuff

dark knight

so, i watched it again and this time i was focusing on harvey dent. i was kinda comparing the two-face origin in the cartoons and the one in the movie. one difference was that the cartoon two-face had anger issues and the movie two-face had revenge issues. anyway, i still think that the movie two-face was good. watching it a second time made me appreciate his character more.. and rachel dawes character too..=) and i cried again.. hehe..=p

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hellboy: the golden army

i saw the trailer for the first time before the dark knight movie started and i wanna watch it!! it had cool characters and monsters and stuff.=) happy.=) i liked the first hellboy and i think i'm gonna like the second one too.=) and the director of this is the same one who did pan's labyrinth.=) i haven't watched it yet but i know it was good.=p

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harry potter and the half-blood prince

i haven't really been a fan of the harry potter movies.. i preferred the books since i started reading it when i was 13. i always thought that they cut and change too much of the story to suit their theatrical needs. but i've started realizing that the movie is different and separate from the book. the book of course cannot be squeezed within a few hours. so, with this new perspective of the movies, i'm excited to see what their interpretation of book 6 would be. i saw the teaser trailer in perezhilton.com and i think they captured the darkness of the book quite okay.=) so yah, i think i'm gonna watch this one.. i skipped movie 5 since a lot of people told me it sucked.. well, it kinda did..=p

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sisterhood of the travelling pants 2

i didn't really want to watch this but i watched the trailer in y!movies and now i want to!=p i miss watching feel good girly movies that make me cry.=) and it's bound to make me feel happy after so i think it's worth watching.=) and, i like a good friendship movie.=) hmm.. wonder who i could drag to watch this with..=p

i just got the weirdest comment..

i can't really say what he told me pero i just wanna say i'm perfectly fine and that i have no problems and that i'm very happy. hahaha!=p sabi nga ni kuya karlo, i was just walking down memory lane. so umm.. i'm okay.=p

grabe.. ang martyr ko pala.. grabe yung pinagdaanan ko.. pero hindi lang naman ako eh.. siya din.. andami niya ding pinagdaanan.. tapos ok na sana nung natapos na.. pero hindi pa pala.. kasi hindi pa pala tapos.. akala ko lang tapos na.. at narealize ko na sa kanya, ako pala ang nagkamali.. ako ang naging masama.. tama naman.. dahil hindi pa nga tapos, at ginawa ko yun.. pero akala ko talaga tapos na.. at dahil dun.. natapos na nga ng tuluyan.. at nagsimula na siya ng kanya.. pero di na kami ok.. at di na ata magiging ok pa.. sayang.. sayang ang pinagsamahan.. ako nasasayangan.. siya kaya?..

ps. wala lang.. i was just.. remembering..=) don't you do that sometimes?.. remember your past and see what happened?.. hehe..=p pero malabo pa to eh.. di na ata to maayos..

it's funny.. now that i think about it.. my first relationship was a direct-to-long-distance relationship.. it worked for a while but i guess things with no stable foundation tend to go weak with time.. now.. i'm in another long-distance relationship.. i guess this has better foundations but it still carries the same pain.. life tends to give me drama even if i don't want it.. and what's worse.. i'm not the happy-go-lucky kid i was back then.. back then, even in pain, i can find reasons to smile.. i can be optimistic and just be happy.. now.. i'm pessimistic and old.. and emotional and fragile.. for no apparent reason.. yah, i get worse through time.. i even look like shit.. good luck to my grad pic..

..just when you need friends, you don't have one..

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and to think i was expecting at least a happy start to my day.. before i throw myself into hell again.. but no, i get a kick in the rear.. thanks..

jans, be more understanding.. you don't know what's happening there..

well, f*ck you.. you don't know what's happening here either..

this conversation with myself sucks even more knowing that no one reads this shit so ranting isn't technically ranting with no receiving end..

i guess when you're both immature and not even emotionally ready, it won't work.. well.. that's a partial explanation.. not the full though.. that's just half of it.. the later half would be in the end.. and yes, i'm still awake, if anyone reads this shit.. i have to stop being addicted to the internet..

maybe that's it.. maybe it was all virtual.. what was shown in the correspondence was what was really felt.. but what was shown in real life, was something else.. maybe it didn't add up.. thus the confusion.. and the misinterpretations.. thus the separation.. weird.. after all this time, i'm still trying to figure it out..